The past 2 weeks since my last post have been consumed by the aftermath from my last post. I will cut to the chase, no I am no close to knowing "the plan" that I was a couple of weeks ago but He has been doing some cool things in the mean time.
My days have been spent meditating on His Words, mainly in the book of Joshua but really He has taken me everywhere to show me His faithfulness and my lack of faith. He has shown me how He has been faithful in the all things and I am just to follow Him step by step in complete obedience. Have I completely succeeded? No, but I rest in His sovereign grace and mercy.
I have sent out resume after resume looking for a job but have not been offered anything yet. I have given the chance to catch up with many of you whom I have not been able to contact in over a month. It has been a blessing to listen to all that He has been doing in your lives and know how to pry more specifically. I have been cleaning and running errands for my parents as they have been so gracious to allow us to stay in their home rent free, for the moment. I have been failing at cooking dinner for them each night and it has been quite the comical scene for those of you who REALLY know me and know that cooking has never been a strength or desire of mine. And I have had some good conversations with Jota about everything from my dinner creations to the future. I began another semester of seminary classes and already feel overwhelmed by the amount of work I have ahead of me but I am thankful for the opportunity to study. And I have been in and out of doctors apts trying to figure out how to best treat some pain I have been having for several years.
As I have seen the love of friends and family in a different way these past two weeks, I appreciate that HE has surrounded me with people that love Him and love me. I know it makes no sense to anyone. I know that everyone just wants to fix it and move forward. And I know that I am a lot weirder now than when I left 5 years ago. I know that His voice is the only voice I can listen to and I must be obedient to whatever He calls me to do.
So I am still dealing with everything that happened two weeks ago...answering questions, fighting with Carnival, paying bills, unpacking my life (physically and spiritually), and trying to focus on Him and only Him. To wonder at how marvelous He is and how good He is. I spend my time reflecting throughout the day of the privilege I have to call Him Abba and what all comes with that word. So this is me...living life in the US...looking for opportunities to serve Him, desiring His will more than anything,
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