So we all go through it in our lifetime, a time where we don't fit, something is missing, Friends is your only connection to a little American humor, you can't remember the last time you ate a Chick-fil-a sandwich or talked to your Mom or your best friend or any friend for that matter, you can't remember the last time you just died laughing with your friends for no reason or danced to your favorite Will Smith song (thanks Hester!) Things don't make sense, you don't feel like yourself, you have no energy, and you cling to your diet coke and whatever American candy you have hoarded from the last volunteer team that came...it's called loneliness!
And I am smack dab in the middle of it! Now, I have experienced this before since being in Colombia. I mean after 3 weeks of being in this country, saying goodbye to the only person you know (and have only know them for 4 weeks) and realizing that it is just you. Brand new culture, language, people, climate, and no one to share it with...oh wait, hello...THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE is with you!!
But this time, it is different. I have cherished my time here with just Him and no one but Him! I have grown more than I ever thought possible and seen Him work in ways I could have only dreamed of before arriving here in Colombia! So why am I back in this same funk?
I wake up. Run with Gomer. Praise Him with whatever song selection on the Ipod. Make a bowl of cereal. Sit down in My Father's lap and begin to cry. What is going on here, Kendall? Why are you crying? Is it close to that time again? Did you not sleep well? Nope, I begin to tell Him just how lonely I am. And do you know what His answer is?
He lead me to 2 Timothy 4:16-18 and reminded me that He is always there. Paul tells Timothy, "At my first defense, no one came to my support but everyone deserted me. May it not be held against them. But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. And I was delivered from the lion's mouth. The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack and will bring me to His Heavenly kingdom. To Him be the glory forever and ever Amen!"
Yes, He will rescue me from this lion of loneliness and every evil attack from the enemy. He will always stand by my side and is my strength...and I love this part. Not for my sake but so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed!! Get over yourself, Kendall. There is a world out there who doesn't know Him and are truly lonely...they don't have the Creator of the Universe living inside of them...so get busy!
And I am smack dab in the middle of it! Now, I have experienced this before since being in Colombia. I mean after 3 weeks of being in this country, saying goodbye to the only person you know (and have only know them for 4 weeks) and realizing that it is just you. Brand new culture, language, people, climate, and no one to share it with...oh wait, hello...THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE is with you!!
But this time, it is different. I have cherished my time here with just Him and no one but Him! I have grown more than I ever thought possible and seen Him work in ways I could have only dreamed of before arriving here in Colombia! So why am I back in this same funk?
I wake up. Run with Gomer. Praise Him with whatever song selection on the Ipod. Make a bowl of cereal. Sit down in My Father's lap and begin to cry. What is going on here, Kendall? Why are you crying? Is it close to that time again? Did you not sleep well? Nope, I begin to tell Him just how lonely I am. And do you know what His answer is?
He lead me to 2 Timothy 4:16-18 and reminded me that He is always there. Paul tells Timothy, "At my first defense, no one came to my support but everyone deserted me. May it not be held against them. But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. And I was delivered from the lion's mouth. The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack and will bring me to His Heavenly kingdom. To Him be the glory forever and ever Amen!"
Yes, He will rescue me from this lion of loneliness and every evil attack from the enemy. He will always stand by my side and is my strength...and I love this part. Not for my sake but so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed!! Get over yourself, Kendall. There is a world out there who doesn't know Him and are truly lonely...they don't have the Creator of the Universe living inside of them...so get busy!
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