So, I have been struggling with the seriousness and magnitude of sin. I do not think we understand or grasp the magnitude of the wickedness of our sin and just how serious HE takes it. We have bought into a belief system that makes us feel bad when we get caught doing something wrong but to truly mourn our sin...to be broken down to the point of falling prostrate before a Holy Dad...to hurt so bad it makes you sick to your stomach at the thought of your sin...do we do that?

I have been listening to several sermons and reading all throughout Scripture and HE keeps bringing this issue to my mind. Kendall, you do not get it...but ask me and I will show you. You don't get that 1/3 of my angels acted out one time in rebellion against me and I damned them to an eternity in hell...with no second chance or grace. You don't get that Adam and Eve ate one fruit in rebellion against My Lrdship of their lives and they were kicked out of My Paradise where they would not longer walk in My Presence. Ananais and Sapphira, stole from me and lied about it and were killed instantly....no second chance or forgiveness for them. And you, you were born a rebellious, idolater, liar, adulterer, and you have disobeyed me your entire life...but yet I constantly pour out my grace upon grace on you. Why can't I see sin for what it really is...death?  Why do I see my sin as something tempting, desirable, incredible, and what I waste so many hours of my day doing?

Interesting thought, right? Then I went to one of my favorites to see if he had written anything about this subject and of course, he had. As usual, he says things so much more eloquently than I could ever try in a million years before I started to learn Spanish. So I have copied his article for you to be challenged by...
I have taken out a couple of vowels of some of the words but I am sure you can follow it.

Real Guilt Is Rare

June 20, 1983 | by John Piper | Topic: Pride & Humility

My dad has always told me that in his work as an evangelist the big problem is not getting people saved but getting them lost. People who really feel lost reach for the gospel. But there are others today who say just the opposite. They say that guilt is such a widespread disease in our society no preacher needs to tell people they are sinners. Trying to make people feel guilty is like carrying coals to Newcastle, they say. Everyone is so oppressed with guilt already that all the preacher needs to do is preach good news of deliverance. Now who is right? My dad, who says it is hard to get people to see their true guilt before Gd? Or the preachers of pop psychology, who say people are already so guilt-ridden you just need to be positive all the time?

My dad is right because his view of guilt is so much more profound than the others’ view. There is a world of difference between the misery of a bad self-image because of masturbation and the profound and terrible remorse of having despised Gd through unbelief. The reason the message of secular psychology (and the Chrstns who imitate it) is so superficial is that its assessment of guilt is so superficial. If you think that the guilt which prepares us to receive the gospel is merely the bad feeling that comes from a low self-image or sagging self-esteem, then the gospel you preach will be just the kind of man-centered, ego-stroking pap that has emasculated the pulpits of our land and obscured the glory of Gd’s mercy .

The guilt which readies a person to receive the great gospel of the glory of Chrst is as rare as the conversions we seek. Hardly anyone experiences the crush of real guilt! We have failed to see that what usually passes for guilt is in fact just more sin, because it is the bad feeling we have, not from our failure to trust Gd’s promises but from our failure to preserve our image as cool, self-sufficient people. Most of what passes for guilt feelings is an expression of pride. We do something impulsive that hurts someone and feel remorse. But does our remorse come from a deep spiritual grief that we have despised Gd by not trusting his promises and not waiting for his wisdom and help? Or does it more often come from the fact that we did not preserve our image as cool and self-sufficient? Real guilt is very rare!

Satan is sly. Not only can he imitate real virtue with legalism; he can also imitate real guilt with low self-esteem. He has achieved a stunning victory by alluring the church into battle with imitation guilt which has transformed the gospel into a message that is powerless against the real enemy. Real guilt is the crushing sense of fear and remorse at the thought of having despised almighty Gd by casting a vote of no-confidence against his word of promise and counsel. Real guilt is radically Gd-centered. Satan’s substitute is the bad feelings we get from a wounded ego. O yes, it is painful. That’s why we think we are preaching gospel when we try to relieve it. But it is based squarely on pride. The guilt feelings caused by Satan’s accusations are not remorse for pride, but the remorse of pride. Yes, there is a nation-wide epidemic of this. But this kind of guilt produces no repentance (2 Corinthians 7:10). It does not prepare the way for the gospel; it hardens against the gospel.

Real guilt is very rare. That’s why my father can say: The really hard work of evangelism is not getting people saved but getting them lost. How about yourself? Do you battle real guilt with a glorious gospel, or is your guilt what pride produces when you haven’t been cool?

For the sake of the gospel,

 
I know...two posts in one day! You should read the Phil 2 post first and then this one.

In my study today, I was challenged to read different commentaries on these two verses and what different respected authors/scholars/pastors thought on these passages. As I was reading, HE brought me to a devotional by Piper on this very thing. He says things the way I feel them but cannot express. He says, "Grumbling is an evidence of little faith in the gracious providence of Gd in all the affairs of our lives." Stop. Reread the quote. And chew on that for awhile. OH WHAT GRACE!!

I have attached his devo because it spoke to me and I hope HE uses it to bless you!

John Piper:
One of the effects of my speaking nine times to pastors in Alaska recently was conviction for my sin of grumbling. What happened was this. I spoke on the things that I love most. I spoke about the great and glorious God of Christian Hedonism--

  • The God who “works for those who wait for him” (Isaiah 64:4);
  • The God who “withholds no good thing from those who walk uprightly” (Psalm 84:11);
  • The God who “pursues us with goodness and mercy all our days” (Psalm 23:6)
  • The God who “works all things together for the good of those who love him” (Romans 8:28);
  • The God who “did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all, and so will surely give us all things with him” (Romans 8:32);
  • The God “through whom we can do all things” (Philippians 4:13);
  • The God “who supplies all our needs according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:19);
  • The God who “will help us, and strengthen us and hold us up by the right hand of his righteousness” (Isaiah 41:10);
  • The God who “will never leave us or forsake us, so that we can confidently say, ‘The Lord is my helper. I will not be afraid; what can man do to me’” (Hebrews 13:5-6);
  • The God who “will complete in me the work he began” (Philippians 1:6);
  • The God “in whose presence is fullness of joy and at whose right hand are pleasures for evermore” (Psalm 16:11);
  • The God who “has all authority in heaven and on earth . . . and who will be with us to the end of the age” (Matthew 28:18-20);
  • The God who “disciplines us for our good that we may share his holiness” (Hebrews 12:10);
  • The God whose “eyes run to and fro throughout the whole earth seeking to show himself mighty on behalf of those whose heart is whole toward him” (2 Chronicles 16:9);
  • The God who “knows the hairs of our head and without whom not a bird falls to the ground” (Matthew 10:29-30);
  • The God who “rejoices to do us good . . . with all his heart and with all his soul” (Jeremiah 32:41);
  • The God who “rejoices over us with gladness and exults over us with loud singing: (Zephaniah 3:17).
When I heard these things coming out of my mouth, I was deeply convicted that my heart had grumbled in these recent months. Paul said, “Do all things without grumbling.” Grumbling is an evidence of little faith in the gracious providence of God in all the affairs of our lives. And little faith is a dishonor to him. It belittles his sovereignty and wisdom and goodness.

Do I believe these things? If my faith is strong, I will not grumble. Pray for me, that I would be glad in the Lord and receive willingly from his hand all he designs for my holiness. Then, as Paul says in the next verse, I can be “a light in the world.” Grumbling only adds to the darkness because it obscures the light of God’s gracious, all-controlling providence.


 
 I have been neglecting to upload what HE has been teaching me again because I fall into the sin of thinking that when I write things here that they have to be so clearly expressed and written eloquently that you few, who actually read this, will be enlightened or challenged. Please forgive me. I know that it is only by the power of His Word and His Spirit living inside each of you that any of these words will have any kind of affect on you. Forgive my disobedient and prideful heart and be blessed by HIS Teachings...

I was blessed to be given different precept studies by some amazing women from FBC Euless. These women have blessed me in so many ways and I praise HIM for the fabulous 3...you know who you are! About 2 months ago, I was pryng about where to study next and had asked two amazing women to study with me. I really wanted to study Ephesians...HE said Philippians. I honestly told HIM that Philippians is such an easy book about rejoicing and it isn't full of much doctrine and I know what the book says. Yep...I know your jaws are on the floor as you read this and seeing so clearly my idiotic ways. Needless to say, I was obedient and the three of us began this study.

The past 9 weeks has been anything but easy, breezy, pat Kendall on the back because she is such a good little girl who practices all of this book! I have been rejoicing as HE has shown me more and more of Himself and myself...and that leads anyone to rejoice! So I could probably write pages and pages of the lessons that HE has taught me in the first two chapters...yep, 9 weeks = 2 chapters! I could tell you how I was beaten up by a simple verse that I should live my life worthy of the gospel message of Chrst Jss. Oh yeah, HE kept me there for about 2 weeks and I am still struggling!

But I want to share with you what HE has been working on me with this week...not even this entire week for the past 3 days. 2 simple verses in chapter 2 but I have been there for 3 days. 
  "Do all things without murmurings and questionings: that ye may become blameless and harmless, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom ye are seen as lights in the world." Phil 2:14-15.

I don't know how well you do at these two verse but frankly I STINK at them. Do you know the definition of murmur/grumble? To utter anything in a low and half articulated voice, indignant complaining, utter sullen discontent before the thing which is the cause of the discontent...just to name a few. If you are guilty of verse 14, do you know what the definition of a murmurer/grumbler is? A discontented man. WOW...that will bring you to your knees really quick right?

How I have become accustomed to murmuring things and become a discontent woman...oh what a wretch I am because clearly in this "easy book full of lessons that I practice daily" it clearly states do ALL THINGS WITHOUT murmuring. ALL THINGS, really Kendall so how well are you doing on that one? Talk about a time of repentance for my prideful attitude and grumblings against HIM. How can anyone be discontent when you have air in your lungs, grace upon grace lavished on you, a Gd Who is so Holy but yet loves and desires to spend time with you?

I challenge you to just pick up Philippians chapter 2 today and read it...I mean, it is light, easy reading. It only starts out with one of the most amazing passages...the incarnation of Jss Chrst and then tells you that HE is working in you so that you can work out/live out in this world...and then the exciting verses I have been studying the past 3 days. I pry that each of you will allow HIM to speak to you today through this passage. I pry that HE will bring you to your knees, humbled and in awe of this AMAZING DAD we serve. I pry that HE will be glorified as you are more satisfied in HIM and cease to grumble/murmur/complain.


Ask the same for me too...