in Gen 25, we are introduced to two new gentlemen Jacob and Esau. This is a story that I have known for the majority of my life. But this week when I read it, HE challenged me with something different from this story. Generally, I focus on why in the world would Esau sell/trade his birthright for some bread and lentil stew? Today, HE asked me the same thing. Kendall, why would you sell/trade one of My Blessings for some short lived, quick fix of a thing from this world? I was completely at a loss for words and immediately hit my knees in shame. 

It is so easy to see the dumb mistakes of other people but when it comes to looking at our own lives, we can find whatever excuse to try and justify our actions. When in reality we have done just what we finished calling dumb. But why would I ever think about letting go of something My Father has given me for some pleasure of this world? It happens when I am not eternally focused. It happens when I am not obedient. It happens all the time.

I ask that you read over this story and see how HE speaks to you. Pry for me as I daily strive to be obedient in accepting HIS AMAZING Blessings for my life and not settling for short lived pleasures of this dying world.
 
Since being home, HE has taken me all over the place in HIS Word and with HIS teachings. It has been eye opening time of seeking HIM and HIS will for this time at home. I have marveled as HIS sovereignty and power in Genesis, beat up in Romans, worshiping through Psalms, challenged through Revelations, and taught through Acts.

Being here as been amazing but I really don't feel like I fit here. I feel really out of place in my homeland and things that are so familiar...I feel like the foreigner. I am so thankful that my sister is here and she is going through the same things. Balancing being HIS Light here and continually walking daily with My Saviour in a busy, busy culture.

 I am learning how to be more of a Barnabas and be an encourager while I am here. Realizing that I do not need to speak on my convictions, what I have seen, and what HE has taught me through the past couple of years. I have found that most people do not want to hear about it, really but I am here for a reason and HE has a purpose for my time here. And so I have been challenged by Barnabas to just encourage people while I am with them. Encourage them wherever they are with HIM, in whatever they are doing for HIM, and in their current mission field. 

I know that I am no better than anyone at all and in fact I am one of the ugliest of sinners that exists. HE has revealed so much of my sin to me while I am here and I am so thankful that HE has given me the opportunity to really repent. It has been truly a humbling time and now I am learning to just sit quietly and listen. When/if HE gives me words to speak, I will share with them but until that point all I can say is here I am, My Lrd...send me wherever...and look for HIS divine appointments!

This is random, I know but it is where I am! All over the place; running hard after HIM! Please pry for me as I walk obediently with HIM and honestly want to glorify HIM here. I want to share with everyone what HE did these past two years in Colombia and in my life. I want to share with everyone what HE has called me to do for the next two years and recruit pryr warriors as I know that nothing is more powerfu
 
First, let me apologize for my lack of updating this site. My last month has been a world wind and this is no excuse because HE was the cause of the whirlwind and I just got caught up watching HIM work and forgot to tell you about it.

So where I am today...Acts 10 when we learn about Corenlius. In Verse 10, he is described as a devout man, who feared Dad with all his household, gave alms generously to the people, and pryd continually to Dad. So this is where my thoughts and questions start, am I someone who HE would describe in this manner? Oh that HE would call me like this...refine me Dad until I am this reflection of you!

I also love in verse 15 when Dad tells Peter in his vision, that what HE has made clean, do not call common. HE is talking about you and me! Sometimes I feel so common and inadequate for anything but here HE is telling us that those HE makes clean, are not common but have been set apart for a purpose! What a beautiful picture and a good word for each of us that are going through our daily routine of serving HIM, loving HIM and others!

But you know what stands out to me the most today in this chapter. Peter was going about his day, serving HIM, loving HIM and loving others when The HS tells him to go to Joppa with some guys. Peter obediently goes and what does he find when he gets there, Cornelius and a room full of people excited to hear about HIS TRUTHS. I am not pretty sure that this what not in Peter's plan for the day nor had he prepared a sermon. But what we see is a man who loves HIM and has an intimate relationship with HIM and just opens HIS mouth obediently and allows The Father to teach the people!

Oh to be daily ready for The HS to call me to another location and preach HIS Good News! Oh that my relationship with HIM would be so intimate that I could hear HIM clearly speaking to me! Oh that I would be a devout woman, who fears HIM, gives generously, and prys continually! And Oh that I would get to experience and see the HS falling on all that hear HIS Words, every single day of my life! PRAISE YOU, Dad for all that you have planned for today and for this life...not so common a